I know what I’m good at. For the sake of appearing humble, I won’t give you a run down; but I am usually a fairly confident person. I have even been confidently wrong on a few things. If I’m in a job interview, I could easily name a handful of things that I feel comfortable doing and feel that I do quite well. But knowing what I’m good at still doesn’t keep me from concentrating on what I’m bad at. I can do 9 out of 10 things well, but that one thing I’m not good at will keep me up at night. It’s what I’m NOT good at that bugs me the most.
I can program a great Sunday mornings experience for our kids, but I’ll drive home thinking of a conversation I had that morning where I didn’t quite say the right thing. Or maybe I talk to the college students during one of their events. I will do a moderately decent job speaking; but I’m up at 3am thinking of that one really stupid thing I said (or maybe it was a dozen stupid things I said….)
I know I’m not alone in this, surely others feel this…right?
As I read Hebrews 10:35-36 this week, I am reminded that my confidence is in God, and it is needed to endure through the end of God’s will. I am learning to have confidence that God knows all my inabilities in ways that even I haven’t even realized, and in spite of all of them he continues to give me opportunities to carry out His will.
Lord, help me to look past the mistakes and errors that paint the picture of my life and help me to see your hand working in my life. Help me to endure to the end of your will for my life.