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Not Getting What I Deserve

It’s honesty time and I’m talking about getting  what I deserve.  Every time that I feel like I’ve met one of my own personal goals, I expect everyone to notice and give me what I deserve.  I’m sure I’m the only one that ever feels this way, right?

It works like this: I give something to somebody, and I want people to give me the credit for the gift given.  I want the accolades that come along with it, and I want the invitations that accompany the attention of my recent greatness.  I want my friends to notice, I want my acquantainces to notice, I want my wife to notice!  I want attention and I want the rewards I deserve.  But,  I also want what I don’t deserve.  I’m happy to get the invitations that come along from the things people “think” I’ve done, that maybe I haven’t actually done.  I’ve got no problem accepting the reward for the assumed.

It’s a bitter battle I’m fighting.

How to reconcile my emotions and ego with my spirit man?  It’s a daily battle of submission, humility, and perspective.  There are times that I have to look beyond what I believe I deserve, and instead give others what they deserve.  In fact, sometimes I have to give others what they don’t deserve.  I force myself to do it at times, but it’s time well spent.

What’s the difference between walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes with a good attitude or walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes with a bad attitude?  Nothing. Your still on the treadmill for 30 minutes, so just do it.  Same goes for letting others get the attention, rewards, respect, and accolades that I feel should be leaning my own way.

I do it until it hurts, and if it doesn’t hurt…then I keep doing it until it does.

Philippians 2:3  Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.4  Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Colossians 3:1  If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God.2  Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.3  For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.4  When Christ who is yourt  life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.



Jonathan Cliff is married to his wife Starr and they together live out their days with two sons and a daughter. Jonathan serves as one of the Pastors at Grace Community Church in Clarksville, Tennessee; where he works with leaders throughout the city to help develop Christian community that leads to deep and meaningful spiritual friendships. His journey has been an adventurous one, having served in the local church for 15 years in family ministry developing leaders, building environments for kids and students to belong, and encouraging parents to take big spiritual steps with their families.