â€œIt’s funny: I always imagined when I was a kid that adults had some kind of inner toolbox full of shiny tools: the saw of discernment, the hammer of wisdom, the sandpaper of patience. But then when I grew up I found that life handed you these rusty bent old tools – friendships, prayer, conscience, honesty – and said ‘do the best you can with these, they will have to do’. And mostly, against all odds, they do.â€
I love the above quote. Â Against all odds, we make our way in life, and it’s good. So good.
Friendships. Prayer. Conscience. Honesty. Â These are our tools.
I am not always the greatest friend….and occasionally my friends aren’t perfect either. Â My best friendships aren’t shiny and pristine and without flaw. Â Our conversations don’t always read like a movie script; sometimes there are not tidy resolutions. Â But I count my friends among the biggest blessings God has given me. Â I learn so much about the character of God by watching my friends nurture and love and forgive and celebrate. Â It’s amazing.
My prayers don’t always get answered. Â Sometimes God seemsÂ inattentive. Â Prayers that I’ve prayed for years start to sound old, and yes, they seem rusty. But then, suddenly, God moves. Â HeÂ actsÂ on my behalf. Â I keep hammering away with that seemingly rusty tool, and God begins to build something.
Conscience and Honesty: Mamas are so grateful when we begin to see these things in our babies. Â An apology rendered earnestly. Â A confession given freely. Â A tear shed over an injustice. Â Conscience and Honesty are, to me, proof of our soul. Â Telling the truth and acting on conscience isn’t always an act of self-preservation, especially when you’re 8 or 10 or 11. Â It’s hard. But good.