There is a great, yet overplayed, song out by Goyte right now (and this cover video is so much less creepy than the original music video.) In the song “Somebody that I used to know” there is one line that always reminds me of me.
“You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness,”
While I haven’t had my heart broken by a girl in 20 years, there are some forms of being sad that I can definitely relate to. Some pretty terrible addictions, and one really good one.
- Sadness that gets me more attention. I’ll go ahead and admit it. There are times that I like to share bad news. It’s purely attention-getting and I love it. I want the hands on my shoulders, the promises of praying for me, and the potential that they buy me lunch.
- Sadness that gives me an excuse to be a jerk. It’s nice to know that there are things that can happen to me, that make it easy for those I love to be gracious with me. But many times, I like to take it farther than I should. I’ll use it as an excuse to push the envelope of being jerky to a whole new level (and I’m talking about a really big envelope of jerkiness.)
- Sadness that forces me to Gods Word. Can I get super-spiritual? There have been moments of discouragement that have brought me to a place that all I want to do is read Christ’ words to me. It pushes me towards a God that cares for me in all seasons. There are reminders in scripture that I need my soul, mind, and heart to hear.
The thing with all forms of sadness, and the things that take me there; is that I can’t stay there. I’ve got to put some symbolic pavement under my feet and keep moving. It’s time to stop the addictions to sadness, and instead use the season as the change that God has intended it to be.
2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.